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Nothing beautiful ever lasts

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Nothing beautiful ever lasts

(venom like frostbite on a Sunday morning)


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My gal pal and I were feeling the hot July mist as we dipped our carefully painted toes in the pool
Swaying our arms to make waves like hurricanes
Flowers blossomed
My best friend
She jokingly said that I’m holding out on love
Not letting anybody too close
Painful reminders of past ghosts
Motorcycles, some of those
I said I’m living like I’m practically comatose
I wake up, open the shades, want to close them back again and fall into a slumber so deep my manager starts calling since I didn’t show up for work
It’s just too much work
And I’m impatient
Stagnant in some ways
Although I am crisp, I say that in a daze
The sky turns ablaze
Hot fire surrounds us

She’s crying and her mascara drips down her rose cheeks
I don’t know what I did
But it’s always me doing something
I remind people of their painful pasts
I refresh their memory that nothing beautiful ever lasts
I put one in mind of the fact that every little time you think something’s good, something’s right
It never is
Your worries become his
And that’s hard to dismiss

I’m not evil
I think I’m not
But the last guy said he hopes my body will rot
I thought it was kind of funny, which sent him in shock
I told him again and again that I’m not quite his flavor
The poor boy, I was doing him a favor!
The January wind came to whisk me away
He locked the door, practically begged me to stay
But it wasn’t hard to walk away (search for new prey)
I’m like a ship that’s too in love with the waves
Goes the wrong way for days
Doesn’t realize there’s a dock waiting, that you don’t have to escape
My vision turns gold and then grey
Nothing beautiful stays
So I celebrate the decay
Am I better off that way?

Morning dew is my favourite
When roses blossom, I’m in heaven
I remember being young, timid, and seven
Pushing my fingers directly into thorns
Gave me a rush that went straight to my bones
I was so little! A young mind so awake
Until I started bleeding and I’d start to shake
Some people are poison, like the tinctures I make
I’m fake I’m fake I’m fake

For God’s sake (my sake and yours) 
Pass me a cider
White roses when you greet me
Try to make me smile
Soon we’ll be dead and no longer will you see me

So I celebrate the decay
Am I better off that way?



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    Poem: Love you in fragments

    Love you in fragments – love you in fragments – love you in fragments – love you 




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    The author of the poetry on Lilac Dove is a young girl living on the outskirts of Los Angeles, twirling her hair with her finger and eating sour candy, as she writes about the strangeness of her life.

    Softness and silk

    I love you in fragments
    Like pieces of a puzzle

    That no matter how hard I try to make out the shapes just right

    I’m always wrong

    I find myself thinking about things like
    Do you paint pictures of me in your mind before going to sleep
    Before resting your beautiful tan head on the mattress because you don’t like pillows
    You joke they’re too soft
    But I’m soft
    Fragile in places I’ll never admit out loud
    Paradise found
    You call, and I’m the happiest girl in the United States of America

    To dream is to escape reality

    But you just ask me questions
    Like I’m an encyclopedia of the world
    And while I’m charmed that you value my intellect so
    It still feels shallow
    A jellyfish catching me after I lose out on a killer wave
    When I’m with you, I always tend to misbehave
    Reconsider my decisions later
    Wonder if I could have done better
    But you encapsulate me every time
    Put me in a bubble with no oxygen, so with every one of my screams I’m losing out on life
    Is that what this is like?

    There were times when I felt divine

    Reconsider my decisions later
    Wonder if I could have done better
    Thankful that I still have your sweater
    Accept the parts of you no-one else sees
    Parts of you that are rust- to me, are shiny
    Pick up the phone every time you call

    Which as of late, has been no time at all

    Leave me a voicemail
    Tell me you love me
    Leave me a voicemail
    Don’t let go when you hug me
    Reconsider my decisions later
    Wonder if I could have done better

    Go to bed every night in your sweater


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    Poem: Soleil et marguerites

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    Poem: Sunshine and daisies (soleil et marguerites)

    Alone in the sunshine with the daisies
    My ash blonde hair turned green from the chlorine
    I step in and out of the pool, I do laps, I take naps
    I find you resting on your stomach with your back to the sun
    Back to the sun
    I thought I was alone here
    But it’s something funny
    Every time I think I’m alone I see you
    You come here, around town, when I’m blue
    You don’t call ahead of time
    The summer air is just sublime
    Dripping rose on the vine

    Alone in the sunshine with the daisies
    They’re my only friends, everybody thinks I’m crazy
    But I’ve got you, baby

    I’d love to stay here with you
    But there are things that I cannot do
    It took some gettin’ used to
    And one of them
    Is to belong to you
    One of them
    Is to belong to you

    I think you know what I know
    I think you know what I know

    I think I’ve got it right this time
    I think I’ve got it right this time

    You and I can’t stay together
    You and I can’t stay together

    No matter the weather
    No matter the shadows
    I think you know what I know
    I think you know what I know

    You and I can’t be together
    You and I can’t be together

    God’s judgement is harshest when it rains


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    XOXO.

    Poem: En juillet, la pluie tant attendue est enfin tombée.

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    Poem: En juillet, la pluie tant attendue est enfin tombée.

    Your 4 by 4
    My innocence
    Sweet hot suspense
    90 miles per hour on the curves up the mountain, to show me what you know about being intense
    Rain comes down and I’m listening to the Bends

    I want to keep tabs on you even though it’s the wrong thing to do
    Like deja vu
    I’m rose, you’re blue
    Falling off the skyscrapers ’cause I’m having fun
    Nobody says I’m beautiful
    I know it’s not that pitiful
    And I’m so damn ill, it hurts

    I found rejection in the cusp of a rose
    I rolled my eyes and thought, of course

    Congeniality isn’t my default
    I had in mind all of these things to say
    But I’m inclined to say I no longer get my way
    For the devil’s child, it’s gotten late
    I found,
    You down
    On your darkest day
    I had in mind all of these things to say
    I wanted to tell you I felt you fading away
    And that wasn’t okay

    I have a feeling you need to find yourself again
    But I’m scared to leave because I know you need some help

    I have a feeling you need to find yourself again
    But I’m scared to leave because I know you need some help
    I know you need some help

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    Poem: Too trusting

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    Poem: Too trusting

    I stay wondering
    If my father was watching over me, how could he steer me into your direction
    It must be a fault of his
    Perhaps some way of showing me I’m smarter than this
    Crawling back to your pink lips
    The detriment of this miss

    I keep thinking to myself
    Why would, knowing the things that I know, I go back to you
    Sleepless nights, catering to my deepest thoughts that are blue
    Swimming in technicolor sound waves, I reimburse
    The fact that you and I are too much alike in the ways we run towards the hills
    On the yard looking through bills
    I can’t pay these days

    Your teenage bedroom that in your 30s you find yourself back in
    I’m in the desert, no cell reception
    Came here to calm my mind but the heat has me in a frenzy
    I stay wondering
    If my father was watching over me
    Would he be mad the way I play this game
    Is he up there, practically screaming my name
    Telling me to not go this way again

    The sea meets my cold feet at the shore
    I’m almost certain that at this point I shouldn’t be in love anymore
    I hear screaming in the background but it’s coming from my mind
    I hear screaming in the background and it’s something scary, I find
    I take the coarse sand, make a castle, and I start wondering how
    It’s been almost three years and we’re not engaged somehow
    The detriment, I’ve found

    When I get to the city I check my phone, 6 missed calls from you
    No voicemails
    You get to this place where you lose your mind and don’t know what to do
    How come you don’t believe I’ll swallow you
    I’m trained for it
    Been a bad girl my whole life
    I hear your carefully colluded sighs
    They make my brain melt, like four hundred degrees
    Blonde hair blowing in the breeze
    Almost melting underneath

    If my father was watching over me
    All of the hell you brought to me, he would tell me
    If my father was watching over me
    I conclude he must not be
    Running in your direction was all me

    You swallow me
    Because I’m too trusting
    You swallow me
    Because I’m too trusting


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