Poem: Heroin dream (tears)

You’re even sweeter than when I met you
What a bloody surprise
You’ve become my moonbeam
My perfect sunrise

You tell me secrets & I keep them
‘Cause I’m loyal like that
I’ve always got your back
Be right there on my bike at the drop of a hat
Haven’t you always wanted a girl like that?

I’m a skeptic of your likeness
You got me carried away
I’m dressing all fancy
Do you like me this way?
Will all the nice jewels get you to stay?
Crisp marmalade
Sunshine in the east
You made me unafraid
You made me so afraid, of what’s to come
And when I daydream before falling asleep
You’re the only one

And you’re reading this right now
Don’t even know it’s about you
Part of that makes me smile, part of that turns me blue
We’re careless on Tuesdays, that’s just what we do
Hit a gram or two
You trace my necklace with your fingertips
Kiss my little shoulder softly with your lips
Got me hung up on this

The drugs won’t work pretty soon, and we’ll fade out
You look so blank like you don’t know what I’m talking about
And then what happens when our families figure it out?

I was spoiled when I first met you, that I got to see your gorgeous face
And we were moving so fast – a dangerous, volatile pace
I wish you well forever
Always in your sweater
Rock me to sleep in this heroin dream

You’re even sweeter than when I met you
You’ve become my moonbeam
My perfect sunrise
And when I think about it
All I do is cry

And when I think about it
All I do is cry

Poem: Love you in fragments

Love you in fragments – love you in fragments – love you in fragments – love you 




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The author of the poetry on Lilac Dove is a young girl living on the outskirts of Los Angeles, twirling her hair with her finger and eating sour candy, as she writes about the strangeness of her life.

Softness and silk

I love you in fragments
Like pieces of a puzzle

That no matter how hard I try to make out the shapes just right

I’m always wrong

I find myself thinking about things like
Do you paint pictures of me in your mind before going to sleep
Before resting your beautiful tan head on the mattress because you don’t like pillows
You joke they’re too soft
But I’m soft
Fragile in places I’ll never admit out loud
Paradise found
You call, and I’m the happiest girl in the United States of America

To dream is to escape reality

But you just ask me questions
Like I’m an encyclopedia of the world
And while I’m charmed that you value my intellect so
It still feels shallow
A jellyfish catching me after I lose out on a killer wave
When I’m with you, I always tend to misbehave
Reconsider my decisions later
Wonder if I could have done better
But you encapsulate me every time
Put me in a bubble with no oxygen, so with every one of my screams I’m losing out on life
Is that what this is like?

There were times when I felt divine

Reconsider my decisions later
Wonder if I could have done better
Thankful that I still have your sweater
Accept the parts of you no-one else sees
Parts of you that are rust- to me, are shiny
Pick up the phone every time you call

Which as of late, has been no time at all

Leave me a voicemail
Tell me you love me
Leave me a voicemail
Don’t let go when you hug me
Reconsider my decisions later
Wonder if I could have done better

Go to bed every night in your sweater


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Poem: En juillet, la pluie tant attendue est enfin tombée.

Poem: En juillet, la pluie tant attendue est enfin tombée.

Your 4 by 4
My innocence
Sweet hot suspense
90 miles per hour on the curves up the mountain, to show me what you know about being intense
Rain comes down and I’m listening to the Bends

I want to keep tabs on you even though it’s the wrong thing to do
Like deja vu
I’m rose, you’re blue
Falling off the skyscrapers ’cause I’m having fun
Nobody says I’m beautiful
I know it’s not that pitiful
And I’m so damn ill, it hurts

I found rejection in the cusp of a rose
I rolled my eyes and thought, of course

Congeniality isn’t my default
I had in mind all of these things to say
But I’m inclined to say I no longer get my way
For the devil’s child, it’s gotten late
I found,
You down
On your darkest day
I had in mind all of these things to say
I wanted to tell you I felt you fading away
And that wasn’t okay

I have a feeling you need to find yourself again
But I’m scared to leave because I know you need some help

I have a feeling you need to find yourself again
But I’m scared to leave because I know you need some help
I know you need some help

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IPSY February 2020 Glam Bag Review!

Hello all! I am SO excited to be reviewing another glam bag from IPSY. I love this company, and I love their samples. When I first took the survey that asked me my skin color, eye color, and preferences I was unsure whether they’d deliver to suit those needs or if it was just a throwaway survey. I think they do pay attention and customers get orders that fulfill their requests and needs. The February 2020 Glam Bag in particular made me really excited to try all the products. On to the photoshoot!

The packaging! So secure and so cute!
The packaging along with the glam bag itself! Gorgeous!
Glam bag in all its glory. It’s furry and basically perfect. I just love touching it.
All of the items included in the glam bag, with the description insert.
Products, change places! Here pictured is the DOUCCE COSMETICS Boombastic Lash Volumizer Mascara, the TARTE Sex Kitten Liquid Liner in Black, and the KVOSSNYC FAIRY DUST Pressed Highlighter in Moonlight. Glam bag included of course!
DOUCCE COSMETICS Boombastic Lash Volumizer Mascara (sample value shown; full value 13.5mL is $24); KVOSSNYC FAIRY DUST Pressed Highlighter in Moonlight (Full size shown, $28); TARTE Sex Kitten Liquid Liner in Black (sample value shown; full value 1.4mL is $20)
Pictured here are the DR.FROG Water Fullcharge All in One (Sample value shown; full size 130mL is $18) which is a face moisturizer, and IT COSMETICS Your Skin But Better Primer + Oil-Free (Sample value shown; full size 30mL is $39).
Pictured here is the KVOSSNYC FAIRY DUST Pressed Highlighter in Moonlight. It’s said to “blend into your skin like butter” and reflect light. Like any highlighter should, but I’m not sure about the blending! I’ll have to see and update. Look ahead for photographs of the inside.
Lil’ trial on my fingertips. So shiny 🙂
Some more fingertip shimmer. I couldn’t help it, what? This is composed of pearly pink pigments that are meant to be placed on the high points of the face and the cheekbones.
A little kiss for everyone that reads my blog; hopefully you enjoy it ! Please get feedback to me, you can message me on instagram at instagram.com/lilacdovee 🙂
This is the TARTE Sex Kitten Liquid Liner in Black. Look ahead to see how sharp and fineeeeee the head is!
TARTE Sex Kitten Liquid Liner in Black. Unbelievable fine point. Exactly what I needed, too.
If there’s one thing you could put in your glam bag, what would it be? I’m thinking Tarte’s eyeliner. It’s a toss-up between eyeliner and mascara, though. And this next one is incredible.
This is the wand on the DOUCCE COSMETICS Boombastic Lash Volumizer Mascara. This volumizes your lashes like crazzzzzzyyyy. I mean, look at the wand! When I first opened the tube I knew this mascara would be a keeper. I keep it in my makeup bag.
A nice picture of my cabinets. KVOSSNYC FAIRY DUST Pressed Highlighter in Moonlight.
This is the information insert that came inside the glam bag with the products. It lists the prices of the actual sizes, something I haven’t seen IPSY do before, so I’m glad about that.

The February 2020 IPSY Glam Bag was a wonderful one. I baaaadly needed a new liquid liner, and I was very pleased to receive the Tarte one. Did you see that fine point? I can’t wait to use it and review it.

I have used three products: the IT COSMETICS Your Skin But Better Primer + Oil-Free (that is so grammatically incorrect that it bothers me), the DOUCCE COSMETICS Boombastic Lash Volumizer Mascara, and the DR.FROG Water Fullcharge All in One (moisturizer) and enjoyed all three products. The mascara is amazing, hands down. I would say 5/5 stars and I’m not even kidding, nor am I generous with my star ratings, haha. The primer I need more time with, as I’m switching up what moisturizers I’m using. Speaking of moisturizer, I’ve tried the DR.FROG and so far it’s super hydrating. It leaves a layer on my face but a makeup primer would probably cancel that out.

Thanks for tuning in!

xo,

Elle

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