Jigsaw puzzles (hot sunshine)

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He’s known
For believing
That
I
Want
Him
But why would I want someone to treat me this bad?
Say the wrong things
When I’m at my most sad
I don’t know about that
Crimson, bleeding skies.

Tall
And
Bright
But he can’t see my glow
I sparkle like a radiant diamond
In the hot sunshine
February, I want my very own valentine
Darling you know I can’t make you mine
You’re plain and simply, just the wrong kind.
I’ve tried.

Slow
Dance
As
The snow falls
There will be other opportunities to visit 10,000 Lakes
With my future true love, several trips I will take
I’ll be swimming in deep waters perfectly wide awake
In azure blue
Soft shades and hues
With you I’ve got way too much to lose
And you know I don’t think-
I don’t think I like the abuse.

Silver shades and glamour
Meet you out front in my pajamas
Tell you to stop drinking so much
There’s so much more for you to see and do
I know that your love for me was never true
I remember that sweet day down in Malibu
Eyes like crayons
Hands shaped like hurricanes
For a boy, I can’t go insane
I’m sorry but I don’t feel the same
Someone please let me out of this game
Played it so many times, now it’s over
Crimson & clover.

Like a jigsaw
I’m like
Like a jigsaw
I’m like
Like a jigsaw
I’m like

Leave voicemails on repeat

Abscess (God)

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I broke my favorite CD while I was opening it
Because of my fake nails
Imagining better versions of you
My ways of moving on, they fail
I’ll tell you a crystal-clear tale
One you’ll save for the books
A story about how much I miss my father
The one who blessed me with good looks
My mother too – but now she grieves
We encounter noone but liars and thieves
I like how I’m surrounded by crisp Autumn leaves.
No time to dream.

I recall a beautiful lullaby
It was his very own way of saying goodbye
I still wonder why.
My hands shake as I type
I’m so lost in this mess
I’m watching you swell like a grimy abscess
Call a cab.

Social disturbances
I fade into obscurity
Nobody reads my poetry
I know I won’t live until my thirties
I wasn’t made for this world
It gets more clear every day
I wake up with bruises
Impossible to wash away
God made me this way.

Decay
Decay
Decay
Decay

God tells me to stay.

Ambivalence (trigger)

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Small
Metal
Chain
Hangs around your wrist
Lean in, give me a kiss
I know lust is just like this

All black attire
Hang on you like barbed wire
Set me on the wildest fire
I’m kind of amazed that you’d think like that
Get to the brink like that
Like magnets attract
I’m solid in your haze
I’m what the world has to be amazed
I’ve caught you in my brilliant gaze
Though it’s never enough
It’s never enough
Look at you, you’re so tough
Wild animal, put you in cuffs
Set me on the wildest fire

I’m ambivalent with remorse
I’ve told you a million times
You won’t catch me with a fine
You’ll lose every time
I’m beautiful and I know
Wild horses are for show
Snowboard on soft snow
My beauty is how I glow

You’ll try to escape
I’m wild and I’m hot
You can feel it in the taste
A strong lust to embrace
Do you like your wishes fulfilled?
Gorgeous photograph, a still
Seek revenge, I’ll fulfill
I’m the softest girl you know

I’ve told you a million times
I’m beautiful and I know
Look at you, you’re so tough
My beauty is how I glow

Do you like your wishes fulfilled?
Finger on the trigger, hold still

Rosemary (white roses)

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I bought white roses
Because I knew you wouldn’t
I knew it would happen like that
I have a penchant for knowing when my heart is going to break
But it stings the same
It stings just as bad
I knew it would happen like that

I changed the flowers’ water
And I cut the ends of the stems
We were happy back then
You never stayed past ten
I was alone at night with a glass of red wine
Just to pass the time
I wanted you to be mine
I wanted you with white roses
I wanted to be the closest
To getting you to change your mind about being the bad one in everyone’s life
Rosemary and chives
Don’t touch my thighs
Just to pass the time

I have a penchant for knowing when my heart is going to break
Regardless of the season it was you who made me ache
I couldn’t take it anymore but I was too strong to break
I wanted to be the closest to getting you to change
Your mind about being the bad one
In everyone’s life

Rosemary and chives
You can no longer touch my thighs
I wanted you to be mine
I wanted you to be mine

Ripe cherries, beehives
Goodbye