Poem: Burnt ash & perfume

May 2, 2021May 4, 2021 distantcaveLeave a comment

Poem: Burnt ash & perfume

You told me that you wanted to read the poems that I end up not posting to my website
You said those are probably the best ones
I just thought you didn’t like my writing
Move my hair behind my right side
This is it
That’s all I have
There’s really no more of me
I sing too
When I’m blue
You swallow me

mailbox, letter boxes, post mail box

I bought the prettiest pink shower curtain
With ruffles on the bottom
Only a few days before my cat shred it to death
Which I thought was rather tasteful
Now it looks like someone got in a bad fight
I’m in for a fright
You call me, you ask to spend the night
Yeah right

I’m in here
Surrounded by black claws and thin ballerina dolls
That play eery slow classical sounds and spin around
I’m the director of this facility
I scan every body and send them either left or right
I don’t like what I do
It frightens me what is done
After the bodies go to the right
It’s not right

I’m attached to you
But I can easily remove myself
I learned by watching you

This is really all I have for you
It doesn’t get better
So when you are cold, and you put on my sweater

I hope the smell of burnt ash & rose perfume is gone

rose, flower, love

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Poem: Paranoid and proud (10,000 times)

April 20, 2021April 20, 2021 distantcaveLeave a comment

Paranoid and proud (10,000)

Enigmatic, or desolate

I knock on your door slowly
Trembling
I don’t want to interrupt your work
You tell me to crawl over to the desk
I said babe, I’ve got a headache
My hair is a mess
I can’t pass your tests

I’m stupid and paranoid
None of your answers make sense
Where were you last Tuesday
Who was that in the car
You reach for another cigar
You’re the most beautiful boy but your personality is tar
You’re mean about my scars

A variation of you and me (but it’s just a fantasy)

The white roses have died
Is it me or my pride
That I always remind you of how my favorite man died
I know I’m a burden, I scream on the inside
Walking on eggshells
Tiny glass fragments
When you threw the vase at the wall because you couldn’t find your glasses
The white roses, they’ve died anyway
Entered a state of decay
Quite like I have, and it’s how I will stay
The light has left me, what do you make of my remains
I’m more revolting every day

Chaos and butterflies
Surprise me with flowers
Plant a tree every time you yawn when I talk about my interests
If this isn’t love or lust then what is this
Why do I sit on your lap every time you come around
How come I put my face to a pillow so that I don’t make a sound
How come you told me that the next time I get lost you hope I won’t ever be found
Like pitch black surround sound

I turn to the other side
I do my best to hide
Is that another exhibition of my pride?

You told me you loved to listen
You lied
Ten thousand times

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IPSY February 2020 Glam Bag Review!

March 6, 2020February 9, 2021 distantcaveLeave a comment

Hello all! I am SO excited to be reviewing another glam bag from IPSY. I love this company, and I love their samples. When I first took the survey that asked me my skin color, eye color, and preferences I was unsure whether they’d deliver to suit those needs or if it was just a throwaway survey. I think they do pay attention and customers get orders that fulfill their requests and needs. The February 2020 Glam Bag in particular made me really excited to try all the products. On to the photoshoot!

The packaging along with the glam bag itself! Gorgeous!

Glam bag in all its glory. It’s furry and basically perfect. I just love touching it.

All of the items included in the glam bag, with the description insert.

Products, change places! Here pictured is the DOUCCE COSMETICS Boombastic Lash Volumizer Mascara, the TARTE Sex Kitten Liquid Liner in Black, and the KVOSSNYC FAIRY DUST Pressed Highlighter in Moonlight. Glam bag included of course!

DOUCCE COSMETICS Boombastic Lash Volumizer Mascara (sample value shown; full value 13.5mL is $24); KVOSSNYC FAIRY DUST Pressed Highlighter in Moonlight (Full size shown, $28); TARTE Sex Kitten Liquid Liner in Black (sample value shown; full value 1.4mL is $20)

Pictured here are the DR.FROG Water Fullcharge All in One (Sample value shown; full size 130mL is $18) which is a face moisturizer, and IT COSMETICS Your Skin But Better Primer + Oil-Free (Sample value shown; full size 30mL is $39).

Pictured here is the KVOSSNYC FAIRY DUST Pressed Highlighter in Moonlight. It’s said to “blend into your skin like butter” and reflect light. Like any highlighter should, but I’m not sure about the blending! I’ll have to see and update. Look ahead for photographs of the inside.

Some more fingertip shimmer. I couldn’t help it, what? This is composed of pearly pink pigments that are meant to be placed on the high points of the face and the cheekbones.

A little kiss for everyone that reads my blog; hopefully you enjoy it ! Please get feedback to me, you can message me on instagram at instagram.com/lilacdovee 🙂

This is the TARTE Sex Kitten Liquid Liner in Black. Look ahead to see how sharp and fineeeeee the head is!

TARTE Sex Kitten Liquid Liner in Black. Unbelievable fine point. Exactly what I needed, too.

If there’s one thing you could put in your glam bag, what would it be? I’m thinking Tarte’s eyeliner. It’s a toss-up between eyeliner and mascara, though. And this next one is incredible.

This is the wand on the DOUCCE COSMETICS Boombastic Lash Volumizer Mascara. This volumizes your lashes like crazzzzzzyyyy. I mean, look at the wand! When I first opened the tube I knew this mascara would be a keeper. I keep it in my makeup bag.

A nice picture of my cabinets. KVOSSNYC FAIRY DUST Pressed Highlighter in Moonlight.

This is the information insert that came inside the glam bag with the products. It lists the prices of the actual sizes, something I haven’t seen IPSY do before, so I’m glad about that.

The February 2020 IPSY Glam Bag was a wonderful one. I baaaadly needed a new liquid liner, and I was very pleased to receive the Tarte one. Did you see that fine point? I can’t wait to use it and review it.

I have used three products: the IT COSMETICS Your Skin But Better Primer + Oil-Free (that is so grammatically incorrect that it bothers me), the DOUCCE COSMETICS Boombastic Lash Volumizer Mascara, and the DR.FROG Water Fullcharge All in One (moisturizer) and enjoyed all three products. The mascara is amazing, hands down. I would say 5/5 stars and I’m not even kidding, nor am I generous with my star ratings, haha. The primer I need more time with, as I’m switching up what moisturizers I’m using. Speaking of moisturizer, I’ve tried the DR.FROG and so far it’s super hydrating. It leaves a layer on my face but a makeup primer would probably cancel that out.

Thanks for tuning in!

xo,

Elle