I’m going to write a short poem for you Because your attention span in regard to me is dim, like my light Like species survival in the afternoons by the Caribbean seas Like a sunset that I swallowed because I was hungry and cold How you lit me a half-broken cigarette, said I was engaging and bold You shined your white teeth and like heaven I was sold
I took a section of your brain to look for “Fos” proteins to see which neurons were active And I saw a glimpse of you and me on the playground You were wearing blue jeans Grass stains and all I was wearing a pink gown like I was dressed for the ball We were talking about being together and having it all The wind blew I got cold You cradled me like a baby Asked me to move in with you, I said screw you, maybe I was so happy I gleamed Loyal like a preteen So high on amphetamines You kissed me on Seafoam boulevard, amongst the serene By the ocean, strawberry cream lotion Patches of snow, circles of rainfall I’m in love with how you’re seventy-four inches tall You call me graceful, for I’m patient and small Call me once, just one phone call
Arachnoid hematomas So thin you could see through my veins Put me on the back of your bike, make me hold you real tight Heaven shines in my eyes, it’s fluorescent and bright White cerebral wave light The stars and the apocalyptic tides The places where my sensitivities hide
In your harsh but kind gaze I reside, and I don’t know why, I don’t know why
I wanted to write you a short poem Because I can’t forget how much you mean to me So I put words together, loosely, and tied them with a silver string I asked you to light me up in the dark But your attention span in regard to me is dim Like my light
Respect My angel baby, my love for you Your honeycomb, bittersweet elegance Pink nail polish on the highest shelf With you, I’m my best self Rest assured I’m in good health All for the commonwealth I have a thousand secrets I’m refusing to tell But if you captivate me enough, entrance me into a maybe, lure me into your consensual cave where we can reminisce about our funniest, most awful, of heartbreaks For the moment’s sake I’m crystal-made I’m dissolving in tangents made up from aptitude I’m L-Dopa converting to dopamine Transfusing to you my sweet nectar of the gods (hey, I love how that collar looks on you) Hey, I love how that sweater looks on you And if I wore one just like it Interlaced your arm with mine Would we be simply divine? Would we look intertwined? Would your heart, at the end of the night, be mine?
I’m silly I’m running away from you In the whitest of the white lace and tulle A skirt so pretty it makes boys hurt I’m not a pacifist, I’m quite the ignorant jerk I repel people like diamonds in tunnel vision I’m sparkly and iridescent, but they say I’m pitch black They don’t know me like that Don’t know I can be precious Don’t know I can be sweet Hot and heavy, sharp on my feet Lose myself in the summer heat I find myself when I choose not to cheat I’m nobody’s mistake but my own Crescent moon devour me still Hold me until I’m candlelit On fire, rupture, rapture, hold me, capture I’m quite the disaster But if you were to look away…
You’d never I’d beg you Surrender your hopes and dreams to my castle of what could’ve been and what was once was that is no more I found you in a cave, you were mine, I found you! You didn’t behave on your own! You had to be tamed! Was it foolish of me to pick up where we left off? You glanced at me, took a sip of whiskey and scoffed I don’t like how you look with that cup in your hand I’d rather find you at the DMV, Tolstoy’s narrative in your hand You’re so good at being grand And when I’ll be queen I’ll demand To share this bittersweet, homely, wholehearted world with you Never shelter you Always unsettle you Make you divide by two Alongside me in front of Lake Michigan, that’s a dream too sweet for me to save in my neural space You always said I had the most perfect, soft face But you couldn’t keep up with my vapid pace
I’ll outrun you in marathons, I’ll sprint past you in daydreams I went to five stores to find a wedding dress that I ended up being unhappy with So we canceled our plans Were unsure of where we could stand See each other in impure reality or dissolve into volatile pieces of sand I’ll take you by the hand Push you into the ocean, make you suffer some more Until you’re practically begging me to take you to shore But I’m not done yet, I haven’t even gotten to the gore When you were in love with me, you were pure When you were in love with me, you were pure When you were in love with me, you were pure When you were in love with me, you were pure
Fly me to Paris, I’ll take you on a tour Of the rose gardens, I wanted to become your bride in Of wife and of man I’m laying in the sand Drew a heart in the dirt, cobblestone made me hurt You wouldn’t say a word
When you were in love with me, you were pure When you were in love with me, you were pure When you were in love with me, you were pure When you were in love with me, you were pure
Now nothing I wear makes me pretty I’m shaking, trembling, and fidgety This is what the anxiety does to me
You were Stained black and I couldn’t Differentiate up from down You closed in on me like atmospheric surround sound And when you asked what I wanted to do, I didn’t lie, I said I wish I would drown
You used to tell me I was prettiest in the bathtub.
