My bare thighs

I’m standing like bamboo
Wishing I was closer to you
From across the city sphere
Count the ways we disappear
Is it sound to say I’m right here

My brain makes too much noise
There never were other boys
I promise, I’m free and coming clean
There was nobody in between

To fall for false truths
It was the summer of disguise
When you touched my bare thighs
You manipulated me and you sighed

I was wasting my potential
The roses died, just to mention
It’s like I said in my clause
Where’s the glory with no applause
What’s the story that’s true
Lying is so far beneath you
I felt defeated and screwed
But then I met another dude
Turns out he’s just like you

When you touched my bare thighs
My brain makes too much noise
I promise I wasn’t lying
When I said there were no other boys
Head up, I maintain my irreconcilable poise
Have fun with your anonymous toys
Do you learn their names?
Does it ever stop the noise?

I know you’re bored

I know you well

Tidal waves

Casting tidal waves
Mussels by the sea shore
From you, I want more

I want the bedtime calls
I want the phone to ring on & on
I want to save your voicemails

And listen to them on repeat
Blue skies are tragedies
For you I fall apart

I’ve got a brand new start
I’ve got a brand new start
Don’t mess this up
Don’t mess this up

Like death, adore him

Gentle
Lilacs growing in the garden
Saying “I’ll see you tomorrow”
A boy who doesn’t leave me with sorrow
And I still mess it up
I find a way
To misbehave
Get my own way
Impatience every day
I go to the beach and pray
For grey skies and soliloquy’s
For you and me, breakfast with tea
For me to provide all your fantasies

It’s rich
It’s gold
Maybe I should have done what I was told
Be a good girl
No temptations
Enforce restrictions
Monitor yourself
Equate honesty with wealth
Maintain your good health
Never run out of breath
Get yourself out of this mess

And when you get a boy that laughs like death
Adore him to the edges of the earth
Make sure he never gets hurt
Not by the ground, not by your lying teeth
More manipulative the further we drive East
This isn’t the place I wanted to be
Come home to me, baby
Softness
Hardship
Making love with passion and greed
Try to do one good deed
Don’t keep your bad habits
Driving fast, avoiding running over rabbits
I’m a little crazy, just a tad bit

Come back to me
I’m fragile
Come home to me
Come home to me
Come home to me
Come home

Cancer

Stuck on you like candy blue
I want to seep you in like maroon
My body’s disjointed and out of touch
Didn’t know somebody could love me this much
It was terrible, a bit too much

Concrete ground is so nice to lay on
When the cars hurriedly pass by
Everyone’s so aggressive, I don’t get why
I’m playing with a stream that started from the Northside
It’s digging holes in me
I have to go inside

A dark cavern is lit by the girls who smile
We’re delighted in conversation so we don’t mind taking a while
Chrysanthemums at the door, left for one of the dancers
I ask the doorman, he knows all of the answers
He told me I look like cancer

He told me I look like cancer
But I’m just a delicate dancer
It’s not my fault I’m decayed
It’s not my fault he never stayed

This is what it looks like to be betrayed