Category: Blues

Daisies
Blueberries on top of frozen ice
Delicious
Everyone around me is looking at me
Waiting for me to induce vomit
Waiting for me to cry out your name
Waiting for me to break down and let tears pour down my face
But I find you at last, my most handsome of gods
I won’t forget your face in the crowd
It’s a million dollar check floating amongst a sea of coins
Hand in hand
Again and again
Sunshine

Daisies
Sunshine
Paradise
Listening to “The Bends” on repeat
“Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh” (a scream) as an intro
Earlier I thought you were a different person
But subsequently I changed my mind
The more you revealed your belly aches
Free showers at the beach for our legs and hair
My chrysanthemums have died but they’re still pink & lovely
You’re lying on the bed waiting to feel better and I’m watching you lay on the bed wondering what ‘better’ will look like

“Better” last time presented itself as you, with a softer, more warm tone
Picking up medication from the evening pharmacy
Opening the car door for me & showing affection
I wished that night that I’d be happy and I was happy
But you’re so distant from me now
You’ve got someone that doesn’t want you to stay out late
But you stay out late
With me

Daisies
Sunshine
Give yourself over to God and let me keep the physical body
And the emotional figurine can come by on Thursday to propose

Then life would be perfect, I suppose
Then life would be perfect, I suppose
Then life would be perfect, I suppose
Don’t you think life would be perfect, you suppose?

Bad boy
On the brink
Throwing up in my kitchen sink
Telling me you don’t trust me
Telling me you won’t commit to me
Telling me you won’t be with me
Stab wounds
Death metal comes to aid
My surrender, painted gold and marmalade
I’m crippling and afraid

I wish to become you
I wish to swallow you whole
I wish to dive into a sea where we can all be immortal and fall into a pivoting haze

I don’t want to pretend

You’ve got no innocence in your blood
Committed every horrible crime spoken of
But I don’t tell your secrets
I’m your beautiful, shiny, silver-coated treasure chest
But when you leave me alone I turn Into a frantic mess
Please, I know it’s hard to digest
I’m swollen and cold
Don’t do what I’m told
I wait for you silently to come by
And you never come by
Too busy working at your craft and succumbing to your shelter
We’re all too busy for the ones we don’t love as much

But I don’t tell your secrets
And you never come by
I don’t want to pretend
I wish to swallow you whole

Black metal and a peach
I call you, I’m not feeling fine
This has been happening all of the time
This pit in my stomach that’s growing
Of external appearances, I’m not showing
Call goes to voicemail
I spin around in my office chair
Thinking of all the things you could be doing
All of the girls that you could be screwing
To my general state this is contributing

So I hang up the telephone
Rock back and forth a bit
Feel like I’m on a sailor’s ship
And I don’t have to do any little thing
But my mind cruelly wakes me up from this dream and points to all of the things I need to do
How somebody can work in this state, I don’t know, I barely do
I run through my contacts but I don’t have anyone but you
And I’m realizing no matter what you say, you almost never come through
What’s a gal like me to do

A magazine clipping on my wall states “Within Reach”
It was put up for inspiration
How simply they made it sound
Like something is right across the fence and you only have to climb it
Well I’m good at climbing fences
But you’re not “Within Reach”
You’re not on the other side of the fence
You’re so far away I can hardly taste you
With guns ablaze I can’t even find you

This fairytale is turning into a nightmare
I believe I’m the only one feeling the despair
Of not having you there
Close to me
Where we can be
Together.

Hydrangeas are the softest flower
My life, has turned painfully sour
Where I go, I don’t know
I cast my seeds, but I don’t sow
I want to dream of a paradise
But every day you’re being not so nice
And I’m fading into the black
It’s starting to feel there’s no turning back

I’m awake at midnight, no early bedtime
The laughter with you, the sweetest of times
I keep it in my heart, somewhere safe
But lately the path to it has felt like a maze
I’m drawing parallels between you and me
But your new girlfriend is far too pretty
Placing symbols on the things you’ve done
Though our deeper love has just begun

I don’t want to be alone all these nights
I want to tell you these things without the hostile fights
Making melancholy films of me undressing
Just to captivate you, stop you from stressing
It’s all for you after all
And deeper into madness I continue to fall
Until finally there’s nothing left of me
You’ll have used me up, don’t you see

I want the passion and the sunrise
I want you to show up, come by by surprise
Capture me in my best light
At least start by saying good night
You’re wild and you’re free, won’t you share
When I spin out of control, won’t you care

I want to be your absolute
But let’s start with telling each other the complete truth
I know it’s hard to do
I know it’s hard to do
I know it’s hard to do
I know it’s hard to do

I sing into teacups
Because they
Drown out the noise

Down at the skate park
With my headphones on
Here come the boys

I grew a garden
Up in the sky
No temper tantrums

Cobwebs in corners
Standing on tip toes
Thinking how handsome

Getting smaller
Not trying to
The comfiest mattress

Lana’s voice is silk
It fulfills me
When I fade into blackness

Him and his hat
I adore both
Though they bring sadness

I am your fake smile
Make your wish well
Photographs are static

Applying regret
Holding together tact
Resume composure

Oh god please
Don’t you tell me
That this is over

Though they bring sadness
Though they bring sadness
When I fade into blackness
When I fade into blackness