Lilac Dove

Draw me like I’m your only girl
Make me the prettiest I can be
A cold-hearted leech on fire
A black-and-gold bee

You’re yelling at me
I can’t hear you through headphones
You bring me close
Send butterflies down my bones

In bed for hours
We spit at the sun
You lie and tell me
I’m your only one

Your secrets are futile
I’ve no wish to escape
I’d rather spend tv nights
Curled up in your dark embrace

The end won’t be nice
We’ll break and we’ll fall
But for now in these times
It’s to you I’ll safely crawl

Your dark embrace
No wish to escape

Self preservation in the back of my mind
Pink lilies with fragrant flowers
The way we talk time goes for hours
And I don’t complain
It’s nice to spend the afternoon wrapped up in conversation
With someone who can keep up
Can keep me on my toes
Never come too close

It’s the way I’m used to living I suppose

I stole a jackfruit from a catering company
A law-abiding contract
He told me I’m not making sense lately
And I can’t bear but agree
I think I’m as insane as can be
Jeopardizing my own position
In reaching paradise
A place that sounds quite nice

Shot me twice like I begged for it
Alaskan river cold, deep somber pride
I put on my pink plush robe and I sip my tea
I’m lonely, you see
In my wake I dream of a handsome man that can take it all away and save me from my distress
Admire me when I get undressed
Be there for me when I am stressed

It is just a passing thought
It is just a passing thought
It is just a passing thought
It is just a passing thought

Me, carnations that are wilting
Without you
Next to me
The fear-mongering outside
The paste-making tear dolls
Capturing you in your best light
Afraid of what darkness is
Your brightest hope
Gone in the daylight
Give it some time

You, attached to all that is holy
Flannel fleece jacket that I found warm
Those nights you let me have
Gifts in boxes, wrapped so pretty
Push my hair behind my ear
Wrap my silk scarf around my brain tight
A missed delight
The race is on
Move forward

Knives carving edges in what we are
What we used to be
More fear-mongering
Tasting the cake before it’s ready
You telling me things about my writing
Looking up when laughing
Carnations coming back to life
Flower food that works its magic
Stellar reviews on Amazon
Brick old fiction that you find charming
A steady pace will win this race
Calm and everlasting
To be, that

I think
You are
Crazy
And
I kind of
Like it

Spike it
Hammer to the ground
Lost and found
Etch and sketch
Little miss made-up
Audrey Hepburn princess
That type of nice

Cool bag of ice
Tall boys seem nice

The pressure’s thick
Lay it on
I’m tired of your games
I want you to misbehave
I want you to say my name

It’s an underachievement to leave me unattended
And alone
Prone to miscalculation
Cash, quick and loan
Money and fast cars
A refusal for a date
Because I’m thinking of someone else

Tall boys seem nice

She’s out in the back
Gardening
Where memories detach
When times were once peaceful
When things came alive
Back then

At dinnertime
Calling each other names
Exploitative for the two of us
Silent expressions
Like combat in hidden tempers
Don’t you remember

Could you have sworn
You remembered his name
One, step. Two, step
Full chamber orchestra
Mercedes GLA 250 parked outside
Your call

Dial-tone