The benefits of sending flowers

I woke up from my slumber feeling alright
Just okay
Dust sprinkled onto the floor when I took my keys off the nightstand
A ring left from a cup of tea because I forget time and time again to use the coasters my mother gifted me
Housewarming
Faces bright
Evening lit up with icing globe lights
Some kind of magic
He didn’t show up
But he sent flowers

Wednesday morning
My favorite
Coffee in bed for ten minutes before work
Late to work
Time and time again
Worth it
I’m a menace to society
I ruin other peoples’ dreams
I call out obscene remarks when the curtain falls
Dates to me are no longer the engaging game they used to be
Don’t want to talk, don’t want to make “I” statements
Boys come and go like the seasons
But this one
Ahead of time
He sent flowers

Bad break-up
“The neighbors can hear you shout
Is that what you want”
Trying to pull it off
A calmness derived from too much exasperation
Glass breaks
Blood flows
His aggravation scares the life out of me
Typical set-up we have here
He moves across the country
I don’t know how to live
How to breathe without him
It’s our anniversary soon
And when the day comes
I’m brushing my teeth
Ring on the door
Got the day right
He sent the most beautiful flowers

Petite amie

Out of three girls I was chosen not to be the girlfriend
What’s funny is that there were three girls to choose from
And I
I did not make the cut
Cut like fresh cut flowers that go in a clear vase
Vase like what you throw at him when it all ends
You mutually break the news that it’s not working but
He just has to take one last take at showing off snide adolescent wit
So really

Whose fault is that

Shivers and strawberries

It gets me every time
Your clandestine grin
Sends shivers down my spine
Keys in the ignition, I sit and wait
Mentally prepare for us to meet
Once again, return as lovers
To be unspoken things
Lemonade in a pastel green glass cup
You’re heavenly don’t you know
I spit you out

No right turn so we lean to the left
California sunflowers are your favorite
I sprinkle flower seeds onto the front row
Of a garden I intend to bury myself into
You tell me I’m like sweet strawberries
I draw into my shell
Safety
Passion
Shelter
You’ll yell at me later
Tell me I’m up to no good
Though I’m spending my afternoons in the garden playing with rubber bands as I watch the sunset
As the sun drops down into the sky and the abyss
We wave goodbye to it
A peaceful display of joie de vivre
It’s what the kids have come out for, on their skateboards, bicycles, and razor scooters
The sound of laughter in the background
Between us too
Boy, I like you

We take it back to old history
You miss me
You really miss me
You tell me I look pretty
I’m dressed up in chiffon and you in leather
We look so good together
That’s the way it is
It’s cold back where it’s bliss
I can’t stand your voice and you can’t stand mine
You confuse me all the time
It’s jeopardizing the tranquility we forged
I could have saw it coming but I was busy in the garden
Doing bad things to you
Asking to go to Malibu
Telling you to get right or it’ll be on the news

You tell me I’m like sweet strawberries
Send shivers down my spine
Cast me another favor
Tell me that all the time
Promise me you’re mine

Boy, I like you
I really, really do

I look for you

Effort is bliss
Times are changing
I’ll forgive you if you forgive me too

I’m standing alone in a crowd full of people
Who look nothing like you
And I look for you

Above the landscape
Many photographs are taken
People want to show their kids

Road trips to Manhattan
Watching the skylights
Things we saw, things we did

I recognize you from somewhere
Somewhere precious and green
You’re both dignified and kind

We hurry to meet your friends
We pass by loud mountains and cherry trees
My need to capture it all, you don’t mind

Feels like we’re spinning all the time
Feels like you’ll catch me from behind
Feels like why I met you, I know why

I sigh in defeat
At the end of the day
Close the curtain and mark my exit

You’re frustrated but won’t show it
I wish you’d just let it out
I know you’re desperate

But disease spreads like wildfire
And we’re warm on the couch
Hand me a Margarita with lime

Feels like we’re spinning all the time
Feels like you’ll catch me from behind
Feels like why I met you, I know why

You’re both dignified and kind

Opportunity cost

I love when you grab my hand
When you take me, pull me close
Love when you say that you like me the most

It’s charming, I suppose

Your Canterbury bells laugh
The smoothness of my thighs
I like to keep my body a surprise

Aloe Vera lining the garden
A chimney ridding of our exhaust
With you I won’t dismiss the opportunity cost

In your laugh I get lost

Daisies covering my sheer white dress
Long nails clicking quickly on my phone screen
Sometimes you’re sweet, sometimes you’re mean

Riding downtown, back of your motorcycle
I throw my arms up and embrace the cold wind
I throw my arms up and lose control
Knowing full well you won’t let me
Won’t let me out of your grasp

Sometimes you’re sweet, sometimes you’re mean
On occasion there’s a happy medium, a wavering in-between
But this time you bicker at me like an untamed preteen

Why on the weekends do you get so green

It isn’t fair to me
Your favorite girl
It isn’t what I deserve
I give you the world

It isn’t what I deserve

But I have rose-colored glasses on
I forgive you every time
I want to spend my days
Loving you in the hot sunshine

But I can’t make you mine
I can’t make you mine
But I can’t make you mine
I can’t make you mine