Lilac Dove

You gave me your band name to listen on Spotify
Tell you what I think
You never read my poetry
That’s a bit unfair don’t you think

The loneliness you describe
I felt it too
I was there too
I melted into you
Spilled black ink on my clothes
Right under your nose

I found where you were hiding
And you came out of that place
And it’s been years coming
Black hoodie and white lace

Now I’m replaying your song
Knowing you and I would get along
Now I’m replaying your song
Knowing you and I would get along
Won’t you write me another song

Daisies
Blueberries on top of frozen ice
Delicious
Everyone around me is looking at me
Waiting for me to induce vomit
Waiting for me to cry out your name
Waiting for me to break down and let tears pour down my face
But I find you at last, my most handsome of gods
I won’t forget your face in the crowd
It’s a million dollar check floating amongst a sea of coins
Hand in hand
Again and again
Sunshine

Daisies
Sunshine
Paradise
Listening to “The Bends” on repeat
“Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh” (a scream) as an intro
Earlier I thought you were a different person
But subsequently I changed my mind
The more you revealed your belly aches
Free showers at the beach for our legs and hair
My chrysanthemums have died but they’re still pink & lovely
You’re lying on the bed waiting to feel better and I’m watching you lay on the bed wondering what ‘better’ will look like

“Better” last time presented itself as you, with a softer, more warm tone
Picking up medication from the evening pharmacy
Opening the car door for me & showing affection
I wished that night that I’d be happy and I was happy
But you’re so distant from me now
You’ve got someone that doesn’t want you to stay out late
But you stay out late
With me

Daisies
Sunshine
Give yourself over to God and let me keep the physical body
And the emotional figurine can come by on Thursday to propose

Then life would be perfect, I suppose
Then life would be perfect, I suppose
Then life would be perfect, I suppose
Don’t you think life would be perfect, you suppose?

Bad boy
On the brink
Throwing up in my kitchen sink
Telling me you don’t trust me
Telling me you won’t commit to me
Telling me you won’t be with me
Stab wounds
Death metal comes to aid
My surrender, painted gold and marmalade
I’m crippling and afraid

I wish to become you
I wish to swallow you whole
I wish to dive into a sea where we can all be immortal and fall into a pivoting haze

I don’t want to pretend

You’ve got no innocence in your blood
Committed every horrible crime spoken of
But I don’t tell your secrets
I’m your beautiful, shiny, silver-coated treasure chest
But when you leave me alone I turn Into a frantic mess
Please, I know it’s hard to digest
I’m swollen and cold
Don’t do what I’m told
I wait for you silently to come by
And you never come by
Too busy working at your craft and succumbing to your shelter
We’re all too busy for the ones we don’t love as much

But I don’t tell your secrets
And you never come by
I don’t want to pretend
I wish to swallow you whole