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Abscess (God)

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I broke my favorite CD while I was opening it
Because of my fake nails
Imagining better versions of you
My ways of moving on, they fail
I’ll tell you a crystal-clear tale
One you’ll save for the books
A story about how much I miss my father
The one who blessed me with good looks
My mother too – but now she grieves
We encounter noone but liars and thieves
I like how I’m surrounded by crisp Autumn leaves.
No time to dream.

I recall a beautiful lullaby
It was his very own way of saying goodbye
I still wonder why.
My hands shake as I type
I’m so lost in this mess
I’m watching you swell like a grimy abscess
Call a cab.

Social disturbances
I fade into obscurity
Nobody reads my poetry
I know I won’t live until my thirties
I wasn’t made for this world
It gets more clear every day
I wake up with bruises
Impossible to wash away
God made me this way.

Decay
Decay
Decay
Decay

God tells me to stay.

Ambivalence (trigger)

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Small
Metal
Chain
Hangs around your wrist
Lean in, give me a kiss
I know lust is just like this

All black attire
Hang on you like barbed wire
Set me on the wildest fire
I’m kind of amazed that you’d think like that
Get to the brink like that
Like magnets attract
I’m solid in your haze
I’m what the world has to be amazed
I’ve caught you in my brilliant gaze
Though it’s never enough
It’s never enough
Look at you, you’re so tough
Wild animal, put you in cuffs
Set me on the wildest fire

I’m ambivalent with remorse
I’ve told you a million times
You won’t catch me with a fine
You’ll lose every time
I’m beautiful and I know
Wild horses are for show
Snowboard on soft snow
My beauty is how I glow

You’ll try to escape
I’m wild and I’m hot
You can feel it in the taste
A strong lust to embrace
Do you like your wishes fulfilled?
Gorgeous photograph, a still
Seek revenge, I’ll fulfill
I’m the softest girl you know

I’ve told you a million times
I’m beautiful and I know
Look at you, you’re so tough
My beauty is how I glow

Do you like your wishes fulfilled?
Finger on the trigger, hold still

Rosemary (white roses)

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I bought white roses
Because I knew you wouldn’t
I knew it would happen like that
I have a penchant for knowing when my heart is going to break
But it stings the same
It stings just as bad
I knew it would happen like that

I changed the flowers’ water
And I cut the ends of the stems
We were happy back then
You never stayed past ten
I was alone at night with a glass of red wine
Just to pass the time
I wanted you to be mine
I wanted you with white roses
I wanted to be the closest
To getting you to change your mind about being the bad one in everyone’s life
Rosemary and chives
Don’t touch my thighs
Just to pass the time

I have a penchant for knowing when my heart is going to break
Regardless of the season it was you who made me ache
I couldn’t take it anymore but I was too strong to break
I wanted to be the closest to getting you to change
Your mind about being the bad one
In everyone’s life

Rosemary and chives
You can no longer touch my thighs
I wanted you to be mine
I wanted you to be mine

Ripe cherries, beehives
Goodbye

Sitting and smoking in your kitchen

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You’re
Way
Too
Handsome to be such a jerk
But you make it work
Yeah, you make it work

I want to
Show you what you’ve been missing
Sitting and smoking in your kitchen
Talk for hours, all I want is to listen
You’re so unaware
Of how I feel
If you found out I’d play it off as no big deal
I’m sick of telling you how sad I am
I want you to put your arms around me
Hug me hello and make me some tea
Decide not to tell me I look pretty
You’re terrible at compliments
Terrified of an audience
But I have been
Waiting
Like, desperately

Play one of your songs for me
Your cats on my lap
Just come back
Let me knock on your door
Walk to Santa Monica to go to the store
Kiss me like that on your bedroom floor

Always leave me wanting more
And go back to hiding from the rest of the world
Even though you’re the coolest guy around