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Never really do

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You talk to me as if I’m a child
And I am a child
To you
Over a foot smaller than you
How many fights I’ve had over you

Lightwaves that produce the perception of color
The dress I wore for you
You didn’t really notice
You never really do
But still I’m quite fond of you
So all is forgiven
My sweet, sweet boy
Who I play like a toy
You’ll be what the world enjoys

Even when you’re under the weather
I want them to know we’re together
I’ll say it a hundred times
You’re mine
You’re mine
You’re mine
With your Volcom clothes
I get ready for you
Black heels, I’ll wear those
But you never notice
You never do
Just how it goes
All for you, I suppose

My birthday

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I went to a rose garden on my birthday
And the beach
I thought of you

White, tender flowers
Softer than soft can be
Soft, just like me
Quiet and still
A few moments until
The rain came down, it spilled

I was at the beach on my birthday
The tide was thin but sweet
I was walking, bare feet
Didn’t have my bathing suit on
So I undressed to my bra
Didn’t have much makeup on
Crisp in the flesh

I was born on that day
The day of surprise
Sand stuck to my thighs
No deceit, and no lies
It was nice to be there
So nice to be there
With you unaware
It was my sweetest birthday

Irreconcilable differences

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Truly madly deeply
Why are you still in love with me
I’m fading and decaying
Can’t you see?
Your love no longer spoils me

Fiscally irresponsible
Minimum down payment
The numbers that apply to your life
And how they contrive their way into mine
Exit tax refund
Supply & demand
I was the one that showed you that band
God, you’re out of the pool and you’re looking so tanned
One day, that was my man

Poor reputation
Repulsive behavior
Bend down now to our lord, Heaven’s savior
I like to be sweet
You can choose the flavor
Favors for favors

Impossible to kill
The burning kind
The love that begins to manipulate your mind
I’m not too far behind
But I’ll catch you one day
When you’re patient enough to let me get my way
When the madness is silk and the dark fades away
When in the sea in your arms I can faithfully stay
And stay that way
Until the decay

1st of September

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It’s the first of September
13 days ’till my birthday, remember?
I haven’t spoken to you in what feels like forever
But now it’s September
And I’m dancing anew
Around my kitchen with my canvas ballet shoes on
Glimmering
Someone asked me if ballerinas really stand on their toes
I laughed and said “well, that’s how it goes”
How we can be so far apart but sometimes feel so, close

You make me
You make me
Comatose

I want to grab you a beer but you’re not here
You’re off doing whatever you like
With a girl like me, yeah, sike
Missed opportunities
Looking out the window
Sipping matcha green tea and staring in the mirror
Like, what do I see here?
The girl who got away
Who had months she wanted to stay
My hip bones show the start of decay

Have I told you how much I love phone calls
When the phone rings, I drop all my things
I pick up the receiver like a delicate secretary
But these days I just hit decline
These days I don’t even buy myself wine
I used to sip it all the time
On the phone with you
Talking about your tattoos
I was stuck to you like glue
On the wrong page

To hear your laugh again
I’d fade into the sea
I’d ask you to swim with me
You’d laugh and say “we’ll see”

So we’ll see

My dream summer

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Cherry blossom, take three
How badly I want to take you home with me
Where we can dance freely
To the music that doesn’t stop
When I drop
Drop, drop down
To the music that doesn’t stop

On the swings with me at the park, free
So glad you could come out with me
I’m reaching high on infidelity
Keep your secrets with me
On the swings, I get so high
You look at me, I feel alive
You’re my dream
I’m not what I seem
Keep your secrets with me

Laying on the grass and the dirt
You playfully slap me but it hurts
It hurts, baby, it hurts
We’re surrounded by leaves
Milk and summer, baby, can’t you see
You are the one, that belongs with me

It hurts, baby, it hurts
You look at me, I feel alive
Where we can dance freely
Milk and summer, baby, can you see me?