Love & Adoration

I want to be loved and adored
Dancing around on your kitchen floor
Send me flowers to my residence, white roses
Split your favorite coffee with me
Bike across the city for me
Wildflowers and daisies
Showers and introductions
Hello, this is my girlfriend; she’s beautiful
That type of love
That type of trust
That type of overseas bending-backwards lust

And no guilt tripping me
For forgetting your favorite color
Not tidying my place before you come over
A new kind of lover
I’m ready for that, I’m sure of it
I’m tired of not hearing nice things about me
Does my perfume smell nice enough for you
Does the scent stay in your car after I leave for the night
Do you crave it when you’re on your pillow thinking of me
Tell me you’re thinking of me
It’s not very hard to do
But it does magnitudes for women who
Haven’t heard compliments in a while
Or sweet things in their ears
Come over here

Be soft with me
Stern as a man should be but with me, gentle
Embrace me like you would a child
A sweet dandelion on your shoulder
Make me comfortable enough to let you over
Into my world where things are upside down
And you’re this broad-shouldered man about town
But then we meet and you spin me around
And you love me and adore me
Love me and adore me

I wish for it
Over
And over
Again

Spin (again)

If we could have our own apartment
To dance in
To yell in
Not at each other because we’re working on it
But at the sun, at the moon
At the corporate offices that block our view of the city lights
Maybe you’ll slow down with me
Take it in deeply
That I get sad at night without you
But when I see you it’s like I’ve again found you

Again, and again, and again, and again
Spin me
Again, and again, and again, and again
Spin me
Again, and again and again, and again
I’ve found you
And I am sad without you
Again

1 boy 1 girl

Our alleged anniversary is just arriving
Been trying to remain yours, trying & trying
I feel like I can’t speak to you about this
Until it grasps me and handcuffs my wrists
I’m a free woman, perhaps not so free
But in the mirror I look so pretty
Chamomile flowers frame my hair and face
You’re looking for your keys that you never misplace
I’m at the bottom of the world, but I’m ace
I’m ace and in first place
First place
I’m in first place

I want you to think about how you talk to me
I’m scared to say but it makes me feel you don’t truly
Love me
Hold me in high regard
When you shut down all of my remarks
I want to have the most wonderful anniversary
But I might have to give a statement- her or me
I can’t keep swimming in the abandoned sea
It’s lost all its sparkle to glamorous me
You’re my only love; can’t you see

I’m in my bathing suit in the wild sunshine
No matter what, if you call, I’ll be on the line
My love, that should go both ways
Though I’m not really sure these days
You keep on pushing me away
You push me away
And yes I have the guts to be with you, to stay
But I’m not the only girl and that pains my veins

To be or not to be the only one

You’re the only one for me
You’re the only one for me
You’re the only one for me
You’re the only one for me

I’m in my bathing suit in the wild sunshine
No matter what, if you call, I’ll be on the line
My love, that should go both ways
Though I’m not really sure these days

Console me and love me
Console me and love me
I’m the only one for you
I’m the only one for you
Ful stop

July 22, still want you

And suddenly I don’t feel so bad about asking you those questions
What are the things you like about her
Me, I sound like a jealous whore
But I’m not
I’m not
I just want you all to myself
Don’t waste your breath
Because if it’s not me, it’s someone else
And that to me, brings a lot of stress
A lot of pain to digest

Suddenly I don’t feel so bad about kissing you all over
If it wasn’t me, you’d find another girl
That’s what I’m stuck in– this aching world
Where people replace each other
Where you don’t say it because you don’t want to be a bother
When I look at you and start thinking like a mother
It’s all on parchment and it’s all ink black
Never got the final days to rest before a heart attack
Climb through to me and throw your wild head back
I don’t want to be temporary
I don’t want to be temporary

I’m scared that you see me as disposable
Like whatever you say goes in one ear and out the other
I may be awfully forgetful but I don’t mean for that to happen
I want to know everything in blue, shades of orange, pink hues
The grass is black and the sky remains blue
When you look at me, what do you want to do?

Take me out to get ice cream at the nondairy place?
Slap me so hard that I’m red in the face?
Hold me in the chilling but warmest embrace?
Look me dead in the face
And I’ll chisel away your stress from your day
Be the kindest girl you’ve ever met
Take your boots off, get onto my bed
Hold me, hold me, hold me
Tell me how you really feel
If you feel anything at all

I don’t want this to be temporary
I don’t want this to be temporary
I’m scared that you see me as disposable
I’m scared that you see me as disposable
When I look at you and start thinking like a mother
Where people replace each other
Because if it’s not me, it’s someone else

A lot of pain to digest

July 3rd

On July 3rd
When you came over
I promised myself that I wouldn’t get any sicker for you
Flowers bloom
Have little love affairs
You’re mine
At least I hope
And continue to

I stir my morning coffee and
The spoon bangs the ceramic mug
So crisp and loud it hurts my ears
Like you calling my name
Like you screaming my name
To wake me up, when I’m awake
To get me to listen to you
The loud bang serves as a reminder and
Although its not pleasant its still a taste of you
Burnt, no sugar, no cream, harsh
In a small white ceramic mug I take you in
Slowly, small sips, add a bit of cream, add a bit of sugar
Like in my dreams
Like when you’re nice to me, but never kind
I love you just the same
I don’t know just what kind of game
You play with me when you take me and flip me upside down and shake me for your entertainment, I don’t like it but it’s your game So I’m your toy

I love you just the same
Like when you’re nice to me, but never kind
Burnt, no sugar, no cream, harsh
Like you screaming my name
So crisp and loud it hurts my ears
Like in my dreams

Like in my dreams
I love you just the same