Your needs (horrifying)

Inside of you there’s something horrifying that nobody can touch
I’ve seen it
I’ve felt it
It was inescapable because I loved you so much
I’d crumble straight into dust
And you’d put on your yellow gloves
And do what you do
You get rid of me
Dark charcoal clouds of animosity
For what?

Your fear of being too much
For one person
Because you know how hard you can crush a girl like me like stained glass
A vase that’s been holding your freshest flowers and keeping them alive for a year
Blended into the scenery
You, unimpressed with the blooming
Coming home, everyday fuming
White roses on Cherry Ave
I loved that day, how about you

Emergency calls
Getting so mad you punch holes in my walls
Loved you so much I didn’t mind
Loved you so much I paid the fine
I let it go every single time
You were gone when you were mine
Loved you so much I thought things were fine
Loved you so much with or without the wine
You didn’t believe me

You didn’t need me
You needed
Help

Irreconcilable differences

Truly madly deeply
Why are you still in love with me
I’m fading and decaying
Can’t you see?
Your love no longer spoils me

Fiscally irresponsible
Minimum down payment
The numbers that apply to your life
And how they contrive their way into mine
Exit tax refund
Supply & demand
I was the one that showed you that band
God, you’re out of the pool and you’re looking so tanned
One day, that was my man

Poor reputation
Repulsive behavior
Bend down now to our lord, Heaven’s savior
I like to be sweet
You can choose the flavor
Favors for favors

Impossible to kill
The burning kind
The love that begins to manipulate your mind
I’m not too far behind
But I’ll catch you one day
When you’re patient enough to let me get my way
When the madness is silk and the dark fades away
When in the sea in your arms I can faithfully stay
And stay that way
Until the decay

My dream summer

Cherry blossom, take three
How badly I want to take you home with me
Where we can dance freely
To the music that doesn’t stop
When I drop
Drop, drop down
To the music that doesn’t stop

On the swings with me at the park, free
So glad you could come out with me
I’m reaching high on infidelity
Keep your secrets with me
On the swings, I get so high
You look at me, I feel alive
You’re my dream
I’m not what I seem
Keep your secrets with me

Laying on the grass and the dirt
You playfully slap me but it hurts
It hurts, baby, it hurts
We’re surrounded by leaves
Milk and summer, baby, can’t you see
You are the one, that belongs with me

It hurts, baby, it hurts
You look at me, I feel alive
Where we can dance freely
Milk and summer, baby, can you see me?

Tidal waves

Casting tidal waves
Mussels by the sea shore
From you, I want more

I want the bedtime calls
I want the phone to ring on & on
I want to save your voicemails

And listen to them on repeat
Blue skies are tragedies
For you I fall apart

I’ve got a brand new start
I’ve got a brand new start
Don’t mess this up
Don’t mess this up

Like death, adore him

Gentle
Lilacs growing in the garden
Saying “I’ll see you tomorrow”
A boy who doesn’t leave me with sorrow
And I still mess it up
I find a way
To misbehave
Get my own way
Impatience every day
I go to the beach and pray
For grey skies and soliloquy’s
For you and me, breakfast with tea
For me to provide all your fantasies

It’s rich
It’s gold
Maybe I should have done what I was told
Be a good girl
No temptations
Enforce restrictions
Monitor yourself
Equate honesty with wealth
Maintain your good health
Never run out of breath
Get yourself out of this mess

And when you get a boy that laughs like death
Adore him to the edges of the earth
Make sure he never gets hurt
Not by the ground, not by your lying teeth
More manipulative the further we drive East
This isn’t the place I wanted to be
Come home to me, baby
Softness
Hardship
Making love with passion and greed
Try to do one good deed
Don’t keep your bad habits
Driving fast, avoiding running over rabbits
I’m a little crazy, just a tad bit

Come back to me
I’m fragile
Come home to me
Come home to me
Come home to me
Come home