Category: Blues

Hunger pangs coinciding with a deep void
I’m still a little girl
Laying awake at night
Breathing fresh air
Lavender air diffuser
Three in the morning & I’m too awake to call you
Too anxious to get my tone right
Too late for me to say good night
I’ll stay up alone, it’s alright

The darkness of the night is a new kind of sparkle
Gives my room a soft gleam
I avoid you, so I frantically clean
But all that matters is what’s in between
Your neural fibers which make me wonder
Am I going too fast, am I slipping under
How am I still stuck on you
Like a long-winded belly-aching strong flu
And what’s in it for you

I could be the most wonderful lover
I could set sail your ship for you
Never make you look bad
Talk to you gently when you are sad
I’m everything you need in life right now
But there are people standing in my way
It makes me want to cry, won’t they go away
Real hesitant I am, so I stand at the bay
And you come to me, an innocent boy
Ask me about my day
Tell me sweet words I haven’t heard in a while
Made me think I went out of style
But if this is our revolution, you and me
Sign me up, sign me up, sign me up

Toss and turn all night all you like
I’ll be next to you quiet and still, in the dark
When the light comes gleaming I’ll stare at your soft face
In the morning I hope you’ll owe me a sweet embrace
I’m not looking forward to the chase
I just want you, you, you
And me, me, me
Intertwined in your bedroom, the cafe, the playground
Push me down onto the ground
Oh dear, what have I found

I’ll turn over, laughing, and say
“You’re the most perfect boy around town”
I just want you, you, you
And me, me, me
Intertwined

You gave me your band name to listen on Spotify
Tell you what I think
You never read my poetry
That’s a bit unfair don’t you think

The loneliness you describe
I felt it too
I was there too
I melted into you
Spilled black ink on my clothes
Right under your nose

I found where you were hiding
And you came out of that place
And it’s been years coming
Black hoodie and white lace

Now I’m replaying your song
Knowing you and I would get along
Now I’m replaying your song
Knowing you and I would get along
Won’t you write me another song

Daisies
Blueberries on top of frozen ice
Delicious
Everyone around me is looking at me
Waiting for me to induce vomit
Waiting for me to cry out your name
Waiting for me to break down and let tears pour down my face
But I find you at last, my most handsome of gods
I won’t forget your face in the crowd
It’s a million dollar check floating amongst a sea of coins
Hand in hand
Again and again
Sunshine

Daisies
Sunshine
Paradise
Listening to “The Bends” on repeat
“Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh” (a scream) as an intro
Earlier I thought you were a different person
But subsequently I changed my mind
The more you revealed your belly aches
Free showers at the beach for our legs and hair
My chrysanthemums have died but they’re still pink & lovely
You’re lying on the bed waiting to feel better and I’m watching you lay on the bed wondering what ‘better’ will look like

“Better” last time presented itself as you, with a softer, more warm tone
Picking up medication from the evening pharmacy
Opening the car door for me & showing affection
I wished that night that I’d be happy and I was happy
But you’re so distant from me now
You’ve got someone that doesn’t want you to stay out late
But you stay out late
With me

Daisies
Sunshine
Give yourself over to God and let me keep the physical body
And the emotional figurine can come by on Thursday to propose

Then life would be perfect, I suppose
Then life would be perfect, I suppose
Then life would be perfect, I suppose
Don’t you think life would be perfect, you suppose?

Bad boy
On the brink
Throwing up in my kitchen sink
Telling me you don’t trust me
Telling me you won’t commit to me
Telling me you won’t be with me
Stab wounds
Death metal comes to aid
My surrender, painted gold and marmalade
I’m crippling and afraid

I wish to become you
I wish to swallow you whole
I wish to dive into a sea where we can all be immortal and fall into a pivoting haze

I don’t want to pretend

You’ve got no innocence in your blood
Committed every horrible crime spoken of
But I don’t tell your secrets
I’m your beautiful, shiny, silver-coated treasure chest
But when you leave me alone I turn Into a frantic mess
Please, I know it’s hard to digest
I’m swollen and cold
Don’t do what I’m told
I wait for you silently to come by
And you never come by
Too busy working at your craft and succumbing to your shelter
We’re all too busy for the ones we don’t love as much

But I don’t tell your secrets
And you never come by
I don’t want to pretend
I wish to swallow you whole

Black metal and a peach
I call you, I’m not feeling fine
This has been happening all of the time
This pit in my stomach that’s growing
Of external appearances, I’m not showing
Call goes to voicemail
I spin around in my office chair
Thinking of all the things you could be doing
All of the girls that you could be screwing
To my general state this is contributing

So I hang up the telephone
Rock back and forth a bit
Feel like I’m on a sailor’s ship
And I don’t have to do any little thing
But my mind cruelly wakes me up from this dream and points to all of the things I need to do
How somebody can work in this state, I don’t know, I barely do
I run through my contacts but I don’t have anyone but you
And I’m realizing no matter what you say, you almost never come through
What’s a gal like me to do

A magazine clipping on my wall states “Within Reach”
It was put up for inspiration
How simply they made it sound
Like something is right across the fence and you only have to climb it
Well I’m good at climbing fences
But you’re not “Within Reach”
You’re not on the other side of the fence
You’re so far away I can hardly taste you
With guns ablaze I can’t even find you

This fairytale is turning into a nightmare
I believe I’m the only one feeling the despair
Of not having you there
Close to me
Where we can be
Together.