On endings

A word to the man that refused to go to the park with me
We had fun in the white gazebo didn’t we

Your complaints running wild about the wood
Me, just happy that came by you could
I’m trapped in a lustful zone of hostility
I want you terribly under the covers with me

A word to the man who won’t listen to anybody else’s music
You were my muse for so many months
I wore heels just for you because I wanted to be pretty
I wanted you to recognize that I was your girl

Soft and gentle, like the morning sea
You lied there deeply embedded in bed with me
You were so quiet I was afraid to talk
But I spelled out my love as if It was in chalk

A word to the man who thinks he’s badass
You’re a memory I’ll never forget
And when it’s cold outside, when it’s wet
Ending things with you I will regret

The one

I’ll see you in every cup of coffee
I’ll miss you so
The way you quietly lied in my bed
The twitch of a finger

Together we reached
A world beyond us two
And I’d be lying if I didn’t say
That I’ll forever miss you

I couldn’t take the panic
You were filled with distrust
But I miss looking at your face
And feeling insatiable lust

You could have been the one
But you dropped the ball
You could have been the one
We could’ve had it all

August 15th

Nobody will ever love you like I have
It’s true, but you can play it safe
A rush of blood through a cardiac valve
Time spent by the El Dorado lake

The housewife me would bake you sweets
Anything you want to enjoy
She’d think your clothes were really neat
She’d walk with grace and intricate poise

You told me I walked classy
It stuck with me like a tide
I couldn’t tell if you were being sassy
But god, I knew I was in for the ride

You’re a very bad guy

So charismatic it makes me bleed
I find you where I least expect
All I wanted was to be someone you need
But you didn’t understand how you did affect

My moods, my mind, my aching back
You hurt me in every which way
The dawn comes slow and stays like plaque
I’ve been up late calling your name

You’re just the same
But god, I knew I was in for the ride

He loves me

He loves me
He loves me not
I’m cutting fresh, wet apricots

In the passenger seat
Photographs of outside
I wish I was taking them of you

Can I own you
Can I have you
Sweet in my basin
Voluntary, but you want to stay
You want to stay

In the passenger seat
I want to say
I want to stay
I want

When the stars align

When the stars align
I won’t think of you
I’ll no longer be with you
No more plans of our honeymoon

It started with a crisp green apple
And you, riding on your jet black bike
Overdosing on Percocet
Calling me for help

Over and over again

Pink dresses and lavish decor
With you I knew I always wanted more
Like fountains and the ocean, sea breeze
You stand and I fall to my knees

Over and over again

No more plans of our honeymoon
We’re filing our divorce papers soon
I can’t help but think is it my fault
But you were the one tearing me apart

Over and over again
I won’t think of you