Month: November 2020

Ambivalence (trigger)

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Small
Metal
Chain
Hangs around your wrist
Lean in, give me a kiss
I know lust is just like this

All black attire
Hang on you like barbed wire
Set me on the wildest fire
I’m kind of amazed that you’d think like that
Get to the brink like that
Like magnets attract
I’m solid in your haze
I’m what the world has to be amazed
I’ve caught you in my brilliant gaze
Though it’s never enough
It’s never enough
Look at you, you’re so tough
Wild animal, put you in cuffs
Set me on the wildest fire

I’m ambivalent with remorse
I’ve told you a million times
You won’t catch me with a fine
You’ll lose every time
I’m beautiful and I know
Wild horses are for show
Snowboard on soft snow
My beauty is how I glow

You’ll try to escape
I’m wild and I’m hot
You can feel it in the taste
A strong lust to embrace
Do you like your wishes fulfilled?
Gorgeous photograph, a still
Seek revenge, I’ll fulfill
I’m the softest girl you know

I’ve told you a million times
I’m beautiful and I know
Look at you, you’re so tough
My beauty is how I glow

Do you like your wishes fulfilled?
Finger on the trigger, hold still

Rosemary (white roses)

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I bought white roses
Because I knew you wouldn’t
I knew it would happen like that
I have a penchant for knowing when my heart is going to break
But it stings the same
It stings just as bad
I knew it would happen like that

I changed the flowers’ water
And I cut the ends of the stems
We were happy back then
You never stayed past ten
I was alone at night with a glass of red wine
Just to pass the time
I wanted you to be mine
I wanted you with white roses
I wanted to be the closest
To getting you to change your mind about being the bad one in everyone’s life
Rosemary and chives
Don’t touch my thighs
Just to pass the time

I have a penchant for knowing when my heart is going to break
Regardless of the season it was you who made me ache
I couldn’t take it anymore but I was too strong to break
I wanted to be the closest to getting you to change
Your mind about being the bad one
In everyone’s life

Rosemary and chives
You can no longer touch my thighs
I wanted you to be mine
I wanted you to be mine

Ripe cherries, beehives
Goodbye

Sitting and smoking in your kitchen

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You’re
Way
Too
Handsome to be such a jerk
But you make it work
Yeah, you make it work

I want to
Show you what you’ve been missing
Sitting and smoking in your kitchen
Talk for hours, all I want is to listen
You’re so unaware
Of how I feel
If you found out I’d play it off as no big deal
I’m sick of telling you how sad I am
I want you to put your arms around me
Hug me hello and make me some tea
Decide not to tell me I look pretty
You’re terrible at compliments
Terrified of an audience
But I have been
Waiting
Like, desperately

Play one of your songs for me
Your cats on my lap
Just come back
Let me knock on your door
Walk to Santa Monica to go to the store
Kiss me like that on your bedroom floor

Always leave me wanting more
And go back to hiding from the rest of the world
Even though you’re the coolest guy around

A lullaby (I wonder why)

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I wrote a poem titled “Cradle” for a boy who never read it
I don’t think I wrote it specifically for him, though
I did it for me
So it didn’t feel like a punch to the gut
So much
As when he did other things
I won’t mention

Did I get your attention
Somebody hit my car and the alarm’s ringing
The neighbors are peering out their windows waiting for it to end
Oh I love it when someone makes the rules bend
I’m staying in my house
Quiet as a mouse
That alarm ringing to me is like a lullaby

Every weekend I have a choice
To distract from all the noise
Hit up the worst possible boy
I’m weak
We barely speak
It’s been a week
Somebody shouts “turn that off!”

I can’t get it to stop
I can’t get it to stop
I can’t get it to stop
I’m weak